VAfarmboy, Man you got it bad. But I'm not talking about your economic situation. That's not it. You say your dad made a good living farming in '70IJ I don't know the man but he must know something, he made through some tough times. I was just a young up-and comer back in '70, so I can't say too much about farm economics, but I do remember that a lot of young beginning farmers like yourself had it tough in a different way.They got to be grand prize winners in the lottery. Only back in the day it was called the Draft lottery. And the grand prize was'nt much of a prize, you got an all expense paid trip to Southeast Asia, jam packed with lots of activities, gar-uhn-teed to leave you with many memories. Maybe you know somebody like that. My pointIJ That wasnt fair. I once confronted a vet with this true fact and that I felt guilt on account of I did'nt go, to which he said good, that's why he went, so I would'nt have to. Made me feel better, but still does'nt make it fair. You went to college, rightIJ You saw the other kids roll up to class in Beemers and Vettes and whatever, and you had a bike or walked or maybe some older ride 'cause you blew your money on frivilous stuff like books and tuition. And you know its because they came from privledge, and they goin' right back to it. And that does'nt seem fair. look at the Alumni News and they'll tell you all about the promotion they got or the trip around the world they took. And there you are, picking corn or whatever, in some old 4400 wondering how to pay all the bills. "Where did I go wrongIJ" You'll say to yourself. lemme tell ya, you're not gonna read about the 3 divorces or the ulcers or the bad- back-pot belly from no activity, or various other family problems these types have. You need to consider this. So you got twenty year old equipmentIJ What's so significant about twenty yearsIJ George Foreman had forty five year old equipment when he won the heavywieght crown. Some poor dude in China is slogging around behind a twenty year old ox and a walking plow. Got his pants rolled up, barefoot, steping in manure and who knows what. Hey, I like farming too, but anybody thinks they're gonna see ME doin' THAT comes from Mars. I'm not trying to dissrespect you. But you can't get hung up with your head all down because things are'nt happening as planned. life just plain is'nt fair, and economics sure 'aint fair. If things were fair, all of us in the Farming Game would make money. But any time you blame someone or something for your situation, you give that someone or something control over you. Then, you are not in control, it is. What I'm saying is, you gotta do the best you can, and focus on what you CAN do. let what you got no control over take care of itself. Or better yet, let The One that put you here take care of it for you. Well, that's the beauty of free advice. You're out nuthin'. But if you let yourself get bitter now, while you're young, it won't matter if you're still farming in ten or twenty years, you'll be miserable. Anybody can farm with all new equipment, and when times are good. But you got to have talent to start with just a little and build it. Is'nt that what you're doingIJ You ever step in the ringIJ Maybe not. But any fighter, or any athlete will tell you that when you done gave it all, and then somehow, some way, gave some more, then, hey, man you won. Don't bother to look at no scoreboard, because you won, and you won't ever forget it,and no one person or persons can take that away. Now that's the kind of privelige you can give your children, instead of a car. And you know there's only a few men what can do that. Joe